Greetings sportsfans. yup, i just turned the big 2-5 today. geezlike! I don't feel very grown up at all. lol
Went to breakfast with my twin sister and some of our friends this morning. It was pretty funny - a few of them turn up, look at me, and go "Oh crap, i forgot it was your birthday too". haha.

In other news, I have a job again!! Whoo to the hooo hooo! It's a business analyst position like I had before I left for the UK, which is pretty cool. But the best part of all is they're sending me to France soon to do some training . Pretty excited about that. Now hopefully in a few months I can sort myself out with transport and stuff coz at the moment i'm borrowing my sister's car. It's just pretty far, so i'm spending a lot of time in traffic which drives me crazy!


Hope all my friends here are doing well and that 2010 is being kind to you all.

xox

Yip, it's that time of year again...

Wishing all my fellow deviants the merriest xmas ever. To those of you who don't celebrate it, enjoy the wind down to the end of the year .

This will be the first time in about 5 years that I actually have any plans for xmas. Seeing as I've moved back to SA, I'll be doing the family thing. Which sounds all great, but my family go totally insane this time of year. The 3 nephews and nieces get so spoilt that it actually makes me want to be sick, but hey. Who am I to tell someone that they're not teaching their kids how to value anything or anyone. lol.

To those of you who have/will be going away on holiday, travel safe, and I hope you have a great one .

Helloooo
Just a quick update
I'm back in South Africa for good now. My bf and I finally called it a day. It's so hard to say goodbye to the last 5 years of your life. so i've been on an emotional rollercoaster lately. For pretty much my entire adult life I've defined who I am as part of a couple. and now i'm struggling a bit to regain that sense of self/individuality.
I am glad though that our parting ways was a mutual thing and we're still on really good terms friendship wise. yes sometimes i wonder if a clean break would help me to get over it more quickly, but at the same time, this is something i need to feel and experience and learn from.
anyway, being back in SA has had it's pro's and con's.

Pros: Weather (except for yesterday and today - it's supposed to be SUMMER, why is it 14 deg celsius?!); friends; dancing; easier for me to get work (i'm temping while looking for something permanent)

Cons: Having to basically start my life all over again; not having my own car anymore; having to stay with my family (ok this one's a pro and a con); Had to leave my xbox behind in the uk!!! *tear*; not having 24/7 internet access

oh, i got a new piercing a few days ago - surface bar in the back of my neck

I've uploaded a few new pics, but sadly my camera was also left behind in the UK. so i'm having to use the one on my phone. sigh. maybe santa will surprise me

Anyway, like i said, don't really have reliable internet access, but i can facebook and msn on my phone so add me there if you like (just let me know who you are . the links are on my profile page here )

i'm proud to announce i have finally gone through all 3000 deviations and over 140 messages. lol. sorry it took so long and that i didn't comment on everything i fav'd.

Look after yourselves everyone!
xx

So, haven't done an update in a bit. So here goes
I'm leaving the UK on Thursday. Yip, I'm going back to South Africa. I'm flying from Newcastle to Heathrow, then Heathrow to Cairo, then on to Johannesburg. The sporadic work assignments I've managed to get just aren't enough to get by on, and money has stretched my relationship to the limit.

Anyway, my twin sister in SA is getting married on Saturday, so i've had my ticket booked for a long time. I was hoping that by now I'd've made enough money to come back after the wedding, but thanks to the issues above, that's not the case. So I'm going to be looking for a job in SA. It's just all so frustrating - over here I battle with issues with my visa restrictions and experience, and in SA it's a fight with BEE and Employment Equity. I'm sad that it's coming to this, but sometimes life doesn't leave you with many options. It feels like it's the end of an era right here. My bf of nearly 5 years won't move back to SA, and I can't stay here and be a Stepford wife. We discussed marriage, but it's a bit of a touchy subject with us. I just don't believe in the concept really. He's been married before. In the past when we've spoken about it I've maintained that I'm not the marrying kind. It's not an issue of commitment for me. In my life, all the examples of marriage have failed spectacularly, and the lasting relationships are the one's who don't get married, but stay together forever. I'm sure I can't be the only one who thinks like this right? So now that we're looking at our options, I've looked at marriage again. But I know that if we go ahead and get married, it'll be the end of us because there will be constant biting remarks about only doing it for a visa and whatnot. besides, if we did get married we'd have to do it in SA anyway.

So I have no idea what the future holds. I'll pretty much be starting from scratch when i get to SA. No job. no car (the public transport in SA is laughable and nowhere near what i've become accustomed to in the UK). I'll probably have to stay with my parents which will be extremely hard for me. But i suppose i should be used to eating humble pie by now

It's not all doom and gloom though. I've made a conscious decision to try to stay positive through it all. I don't have it near as bad as other people out there. In fact, over the weekend i went to get some groceries and walked past an ancient old lady sitting in the corner of a cafe by herself eating a toasted sandwich. This lady looked so incredibly frail and sad and it was like her every pore was oozing loneliness into the air. Just walking past I felt so sad for her that i got tears in my eyes. So, so what if i don't have a job right now. so what if i'm broke. i still have family and friends. i still have a lifetime of experiences to feel and be moved by.

So i'll probably be really scarce from thursday coz i won't have regular internet access. But to all my special friends here on DA: try not to let life get you down, and try to appreciate what you have in your life, however much or little that is.

Catch you all again, hopefully soon!
Take care

Sooo, quick update on the cleaning job...
I don't have it anymore. that's right folks, i managed to be employed for a week. got a call yesterday to let me know that the new temp staff that had been taken on was being let go again because some cleaning contracts had falled through and some of the company vans had been repossessed. isn't that marvellous? pah!

It was an interesting week though. met some really nice people. and being elbow deep in somebody else's toilet is an experience in itself! but that means i'm back to the drawing board again. If only in the literal sense. with all the money stress i've been scoring a zilch on the creative richter scale.

hope everyone else is managing to stay happy